Holding Back

So a lot has happened since I last posted and I will get to all that at some point. Today thought I am focused on what is holding you back?

So what is holding me back? I sit here and wonder why I am struggling to make some very difficult but necessary changes in my life and I wonder what is holding me back? What am I holding onto that is causing me to feel like I can’t or don’t want to move forward.

You are probably thinking to yourself by now this therapist has issues, well I do but doesn’t everyone? I have allowed so many things from my past to take hold of me. I say it like that but the reality of it is I am holding on to them. I am holding onto what happened with my mother in law in NJ. I am holding on to my perceived failure at my last job. I am holding on to my hip injury that kept me from running. The reality is if I let go of these things, then what excuse do I have? NONE!!!!!

See that is the key, if I let go then I have no more excuses. These excuses have allowed me to gain almost 70lbs, these excuses have kept me from being the mom I know I can be and the therapist I know that I am. All of these things are just that things and they keep me from being the best version of myself in spite of what I know to be true. So then why do I keep holding onto them?

That my dears is the million dollar question, why do I keep holding onto them and allowing them to be the reason’s for my failure. It often times for me goes back to my fear of succeeding. The reality is though it is deeper than that. I then wouldn’t have an excuse and my life the past two years has been build on excuses. Now is the time to change, now is the time to let go of these things that should no longer be defining me ( or you for that matter).

So who is with me? What can you let go of today that had been holding onto you and holding you back? Pick one thing and let’s start moving forward.